Sunday Night

I didn't post yesterday and almost didn't today. I was pretty tired on Saturday so I just sat around and relaxed! Then this morning I even slept in an hour but took 6....count them.....6 naps! I have a low grade fever.

As some of you know I am still sick from November. I have been battling pnuemonia and a collapsed lung for weeks and weeks now. I finally went to my pulmonologist on Feb 23. He was concerned that my mulitple rounds of antibiotics and steroids were not working. So he decided to send me for a CT scan on Feb 26 to check out how things look in there. Well (with my luck) the doctor called back in less than 24 hours to say the results came back "abnormal". He was called by the radiologist and was going to personally go look at the CT hinself. As he is telling me this I am in shock and terrified at the same time. He tells me he needs more blood work and to come in on Monday (March 2) for my labs. He also scheduled me for a Bronchoscope on March 9 (tomorrow) at 9AM. This is a test were under IV sedation they will stick a tube down my throat into my left lung. This way they can look around with a camera, take some samples and do a biopsy. I won't get into all the grose details (you can look it up online if you like). Anyway I can't even explain all the horrific things that have gone through my mind. I am freaking out that he will look in there and find cancer. I don't want him to find anything else either but definatley not cancer. I just want them to say hey it's still pnuemonia and we have to do some IV meds or something. Or at the most that they will have to fix my lung collapse surgically. I hate the hospital but I could deal with a couple days of it.

Jimmy has been home taking care of me since December. His unit it so great! They have really stood behind him and I. No other unit we have been in would have done this. I am so grateful to have him in my life!

Please say a prayer for me. I so very much in need of them.